All These Things That I’ve Done

How on earth do I catch you all up with the last several months? Do I really even want to? No, not really, but kinda, in a short way, so as not to overload anyone’s senses…

We’re in an up spin. After moving 3 times in 3 months, coming back to a faith I turned away from years ago and being baptized, a doubled workload due to the departure of a co-worker for greener pastures within the company, getting a van, then a car, selling the van and having the car stolen within the same week, recovering our car and being intensely paranoid about everyone we see wondering through the parking lot, staying up at odd hours and waking up randomly to open the blinds to check to see if the car is still there, crazy anxiety dreams about bad things happening to us and our possessions, gnawing-on-my-guts of my old companion “depression”, illness, financial drama, and anything I might have missed…*deep breath*…I actually feel calm and pleasant at the moment. I’ve worked hard to mentally let go of my fears, my worries, my sorrows, and give them up to a God who is bigger than I am and more well equipped to handle such matters. I feel relief.

I’m going to have to say that K and I have done well by each other through all this, and that gives me immeasurable hope for our future. There were a few times when we snapped and let stress get the better of us, but those were the times when instead of pushing further apart or building walls, we clung to each other all the more tightly and held on. To me, that says a lot about how deeply we value this love and partnership.

Are some things still unresolved and need additional attention? Yes. I have serious work to do on my weight, fitness, and overall health. I have a husband I need to learn to be even more patient and understanding with. I have a job that is no longer overwhelming and is ripe for tackling new and exciting projects. I have speeches to write and deliver, recipes to practice and record, in-laws to strengthen bonds with and make them aware of how much I care for and love them. There’s work to be done. There’s blogs to write (and read! my fellow bloggers I have so much to catch up on with you!).

I have returned. The Lord has brought me through the chaos and tumult. Amen.

-N

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About thepoopoostorylady

I am a woman, soon to become wife, with less and less opportunities to deny adulthood has arrived. I've wanted to blog for a few years now, and with all the blog reading I've done the past several months in trying to find some idea what this new life married to this wonderful Indian man might look like, I've finally found the guts to bring my own story to the mix. If there's one thing I've learned from all this reading it is that although many share a common theme, every experience is intensely unique. I hope those who visit will find a place to bond over the human conditions we all must face, as well as all the special messes we each call our own. Welcome to my first blog; I'm delighted to have you! PS: The blog title alludes to a lifetime of friendly overshares from family, friends, and random strangers. I apparently look like a lady you can talk about your bowel movements with. To each their own!

Posted on November 6, 2011, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. Lawwddd….Your to do list and have done list wore me out just reading it lol. It amazes me how busy we get and how much we can get done. I have no idea how or why we get through all this daily stuff but I do know we never give ourselves enough credit for having done it all. Here’s hoping you stay put for a while because I know moving sucks!

  2. You’ve been through quite the whirlwind lately. It’s exciting though. It’s amazing that you’ve been able “pack up your sorrows and give them all to me” (as the old song says). I wish I knew how to do that! God certainly has helped me to do that, but some things still cling to me.

  3. BBBB – I was just at your blog! lol It ain’t easy to make yourself give up that kind of control, even though it sounds like something you’d want to. And honestly, things still try to cling to me, too. I just keep on “knocking the dust from my heels”.

  4. WB – I’m a little scared that giving ourselves credit would invite more. I know that isn’t supposed to be how it works, but man I can’t get past believing in Murphy’s Law.

  5. Hi there – like your blog how did you meet (sorry being a bit slow probably!)

  6. Howdy masalabou! We met on a matrimonial website. My early posts back in May/June detail it if you want to check them out :-).

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